Thursday, October 23, 2008

Like sister like sister

So instead of like mother like child, I'm like my sister. So Abbey has a little girl and because she's a mom she occasionally worries about things a little bit more than necessary. Maybe sometimes a lot. Maybe going off the deep end is a better term. Now don't get me wrong, I love my sister and have just recently acquired a new appreciation for this habit that she sometimes has. Last week I got a spider bite. I didn't notice when I got it I just looked down and it was really huge on my leg and really swollen and hurt pretty bad. Well that was unlike any spider bite I've ever had so me being the curious person I am was curious as to what kind of spider bit me. So I went on the internet, and word of caution, NEVER do this. I freaked myself out so bad that I honestly was scared that I was going to lose my leg. I was convinced I had been bitten by a brown recluse and could not sleep for an entire night. Why I got so freaked out, I don't even know. Maybe because school was super stressing me out so I was already a little crazy or I hadn't gotten enough sleep. I don't know, but I FLIPPED out. I maybe would have gone further in my madness but luckily I was talking to my friend at the time who made me stop looking at the computer. If not for that I might have gotten even worse. The entire time this was happening I was thinking to myself, Heidi, you have gone off the crazy train right now. This is not rational AT ALL, and yet here you are, still on the computer at 1 in the morning. What are you doing? But yet, I couldn't stop myself. It was crazy. But I finally went to sleep and woke up in the morning realizing that I was a complete idiot, I had not been bitten by a crazy spider, and was not going to die. But for that small amount of was awful....and Heidi went crazy.

I hear what you're saying....

So you're in an argument with someone and trying to get everyone to maybe calm down and understand where everyone is coming from. And then the person you're having a heated conversation with says these words "I hear what you're saying....but" and then they launch into the same things that they've been saying all along. Or "I see where you're coming from....but". Ya that's like telling me to calm down when I'm upset. It just doesn't happen. And it has the opposite effect of me calming down. In fact it makes me so more upset when I'm patronized like a two year old then if you just said I was an idiot for not understanding. In all reality you moron don't have any idea what I'm saying or where I'm coming from otherwise we would have already established that I'm right and you're an idiot. It's like apologizing before you insult someone, or sayings she's so nice but just ugly. That doesn't make it better, it makes you a hypocrite. Low simpleminded people who can't step outside their own preconceptions and prejudices and even see the value in the other person's argument don't help anyone. Even if you're not going to agree, just being able to understand where another person is coming from helps everything. You don't have to agree, just by understanding doesn't mean that you're going to have to give up your convictions and "go to the dark side" or whatever the hell you think is going to happen by having a rational conversation. It's amazing to have your own opinions and convictions, I applaud that in everyone, but being so shortsighted that you can't even objectively think about anything other than YOUR opinion is not a good thing. In fact it makes everything in the "real world" harder to deal with and you make everything harder than it needs to be. Don't be scared to see things from others' viewpoints, that's not necessary.

Sorry for the tirade....but this probably is my biggest pet peeve in the entire universe and I had to vent.

Monday, October 20, 2008

That's the ticket

So there's this stuff....called cheesecake, that is my absolute most favorite special mind blowing dessert that I totally and completely adore. Yup. Cheesecake. It's the ONLY kind of dessert that I could eat all day every day. And I'm not a dessert person. Cake is not a fav. But anyway, I digress. Back to cheesecake. I hate pumpkin. I have never liked pumpkin pie although the smell is delicious. But I despise pumpkin pie. BUT, my grandma used to make pumpkin bars, and it's like my childhood comes back when I smell it now and I am oddly fascinated with trying everything pumpkin. Except the pie, still don't like it. Again, a side step although a necessary one in order to explain my real thought. Pumpkin cheesecake. I say it again, pumpkin cheesecake. Pumpkin cheesecake from The Cheesecake factory. I loved it. I might have to go back again and get more. I could not stop eating it. So ya. Pumpkin cheesecake takes me back to the grandmother that I love and cheesecake which I also love. It was the most amazing cheesecake love I've ever had.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Whoa. Kill the Motor Dude

Sorry, had to throw the Finding Nemo reference in there since I watch that movie all the time and the quotes have now become just as second nature as Brian Regan. This week has been.....interesting. Not really the most busy week, well at least not now since I have nothing due for the rest of the week....well nothing big. But anyway, that's beside the point, either way this week I have been incredibly stressed out. To the point of almost losing my temper with the poor woman who gave me a pedicure who mildly insulted me saying I needed to wax more. But due to this stress I've been pondering the little things that can help us unwind and not take normal everyday stress to new and spectacular levels. It's got to be healthy that we have these outlets right? I mean they say stress is the number one cause of getting sick. So I was thinking about the things that keep me sane. Sadly most of them I personally have to do alone otherwise they do not help at all. Haha being around people does not ease my stress although sometimes I wish it would because finding time alone is hard. But anyway my things are first and always listening to music. I have a playlist for every mood I can possibly have and I have to find the right one to destress me. If I'm depressed I listen to mellow music like James Blunt, if I'm angry or annoyed I listen to really loud music that drowns out my thoughts, and if I'm just low then I listen to love songs. Cheesy to the max I know but love songs give me hope in everything so it helps. My next destress thing is working out. This I have to do alone, I really really really really hate to work out with other people and just going for a walk or something by myself makes everything better for me. And lastly, something that I usually forget but wish I didn't is playing the piano. Even though I'm not as good as I would like to be at playing the songs I love, just moving my hands that way helps me connect to the songs I play. I wish I knew more songs but the ones I really only play are hymns, I think they're beautiful to hear and none of them make you sad. Tonight my sis took her offspring to the park to play after dinner and I think they were gone for an hour and I played her piano the entire time she was gone. It was awesome. Haha then her daughter came home, saw me playing and started crying and came and pushed me off the bench to get me to quit playing her piano. Haha. I don't know why I decided to share what my little things are, maybe just so that I don't forget them again and get so stressed that I can't function.....

On a lighter note...I claim all credit for the naming of Abbey's child!!! Haha probably not but that's what I'll say until the end of my life.

On a lighter "make Heidi laugh hysterically note" but perhaps sobering at the same time....Someone has tried to sue God. A Senator no less. He sued because he said that God had threatened his Omaha constituents and caused widespread fear and "widespread death, destruction and terrorization of millions upon millions of the Earth's inhabitants." (That's a direct quote people) Yup. That just happened. Too bad the judge threw out the lawsuit because since the summons couldn't be delivered to a home address of the defendant (God), the suit wasn't legal. Oh but the good senator has not given up, he thinks that by saying God has no home address that shows the court recognizes His omniscience, and since God knows all, God knows he was sued. Ya good luck with that one buddy. He has 30 days to decide whether he'll appeal. What an awesome man the people of Nebraska have picked for themselves. He served in the Legislature for 38 years, and has criticized Christians on numerous occasions. You stay classy San Diego, you stay classy.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Just Because

Just because I have fallen in love with this song, I feel like sharing the lyrics because they're amazing!! Haha

Gotta Be Somebody - Nickleback

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
Will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when I find the one that I spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight out on the street out in the moonlight
And damn it this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when I find the one that I spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.
`Cause nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
Because you never know when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me Ohhhhhh.
Nobody wants to go it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There `s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

Love it.