The last time I looked it was the first of November. It was then that I realized I have completely missed all of October. And now I realize I've already missed an entire week of November! What is that all about? I guess I missed all this time in blogging too since it's been a month and a half since I've written something. There's two reasons for this, both don't matter at all but I'll tell you anyway. First it really has been like I've missed the last month. This semester has just been going by insanely fast which is good because I hate it, but also bad because I don't have any time to get my bearings! The second reason is that I haven't been incredibly happy and writing when I'm not happy is not a fun experience for anyone. But I think I've turned a corner there.
For a little while I could see no light at the end of the tunnel. I thought that the tunnel I was in had no end and people just went in it to die horrible claustrophobic deaths and no one would ever find their bodies.
Because of that happy sentiment I've had the opportunity to realize just how amazing my friends and family are. Never before in my life have I had to lean so hard on the ones who love me. They taught me something I have a sneaking suspicion I desperately needed to learn. That is: The value of Perspective.
Everything is in extreme focus when you're very close to it.
Such extreme focus that the rest of the big picture is severely diminished.
Sometimes that kind of focus can bring beauty to something you never noticed before. Unfortunately it can also make you feel like you are a single solitary leaf being blown about by the wind and no one else knows how you're feeling.
This isn't exactly reality though. There are many beautiful things that we can see if we widen our focus, and widen our perspective. It might take a little longer to see (we have to lengthen the shutter speed), but it's still there. And the colors can be amazing.
Basically the thing I learned about perspective is that there's always light somewhere. It just might not be where I'm looking at the moment. So if I don't see any light, I just need to look somewhere else.
And it's always the darkest before the brilliant sunny dawn.
*If you couldn't tell, I get picture happy in the fall. It turned out to be one of the main things that made me happy this past month. I have so many more pictures I wish I could put them all up so that I could look at them more and more.