Fun Fact

So, schizophrenia. Some of the signs that you are schizophrenic are in how your brain chemistry changes from normal. At least in men. In men the hypocampus gets bigger than normal or maybe it isn't the hypocampus but it's something like that that changes size and is a sign of schizophrenia. So that's cool and special. Women however already have the different sized part of the brain. Another aspect of schizophrenia is that the symptoms are somewhat inhibited by estrogen. So what, maybe insane conclusion can we draw from this? That women are predisposed to schizophrenia. This is what I think contributes to PMS. Think about it. This is the point when your estrogen is the lowest and women exhibit crazy mood swings. It all sort of makes sense right? Okie this funky observation being said I must say that I am COMPLETELY against women using PMS as an excuse for their behavior. I'm not saying that PMS doesn't exist because I'll be honest there are times just bursting into tears for no reason or being incredibly irritable happens. But, I don't think you can make excuses for your behavior. We know that it happens and you have to prepare for that, or at least take responsibility for the fact that you didn't prepare for it. It's childish to blame PMS for something that if you get many times a year since you were a teenager, you should be able to control it by now. But that aside, it is intruging to think about the schizophrenia aspect...

School Administration

So the class that I want to get into is closed. I don't understand how I'm supposed to convince the instructor that he should override me into class. And really it's organic chemistry, how many people are going to drop out of this class anyway, I'll fit right in after a couple weeks. But I think I have to go in and see him in person and that's annoying since I don't get back until late....lame. I just don't know how to write this type of stuff in an email.

History

Okie so let me preface this by saying that pretty much the only books I read are historic, preferrably historical fiction. I love history, it's my favorite. But here is what happens to me every single time. I just finished reading 1776 and watched the WWII movie Valkerie (both excellent might I add).
I know the stories well and so just learning about the characters more and more was awesome. But even I know what's going to happen and it's already set in stone I still get sucked in to the story and root for the good guys! You want them to win so badly and it's almost more devastating when what you knew was going to happen happens anyway. For example in Valkerie.... I'm not giving away the story line here but there is a coup against Hitler and, again not giving anything away but it doesn't succeed. But it's SO sad because the entire time you see how creeptastic Hitler is and you are hoping that something bad doesn't happen and Tom Cruise succeeds! But alas, history hasn't changed and neither did the historical biography of the story. Every single time this happens and I don't know if I can stop. It's just a weird phenomena where you root for the good guy even though you know what's going to happen. I think it's just the effect that a book has one you, or a movie for that matter. You get into the story and forget yourself. You just focus on the characters and their feelings. You get lost in their own personal story and forget the world that you know and think about.

Resolutions

Okie so I'm not really into New Years Resolutions because I'm not usually so good at keeping them. But I do try and make goals and then see how long I work at them. It usually works out that I keep them for a while and then go a little bit up and down with them. Doing really well and then not doing so well. But I think it's important that you keep trying with things like that because it helps make you a better person and each time you work at it you get a little better. So just to make myself a little more accountable I thought I'd mention what my goals are for this year.

So here's the first one for this year. Actually the one I don't think I'll have trouble keeping but it still worries me. This one is about school and doing well. I don't think I'll forget this one because school is always on my mind...maybe that's a little lame. But whatev, do well at school.

Second is do better at being social. I try to get a little better at this every year and I think I am. But I want to be outgoing and comfortable in situations when I don't know people. Or at least pretend that I am.

I had more but I can't remember them at the moment. But oh well. At least I wrote a couple things down. Ha maybe I'll remember the rest later. Happy new year!!! Hope it's better than the last.

Christmas Memories

In the spirit of Chrstimas I was thinking about all of my favorite memories from those times and when I was little. So here are just a few. I share them because sharing memories is like sharing yourself and you can see what inspires people and what has really made an impression on them because those are the things they remember the most.
So first one of my favorite things is that every Christmas morning I am the one who gets to seperate all the presents and decide where people sit. I also love it that no one has realized that I give myself the best seat every year. Haha. But one year I came out really early and just started seperating the presents not even thinking about it and I had them all seperated when mom came out. She was a little upset because she hadn't taken a picture of the tree yet and I had to put every single present back, take a picture and then seperate them again. So after that I have taken a picture of the tree FIRST before seperating everything.
Another favorite memory is being little, before we moved so before I was seven and was really into Santa. Abbey and I used to wake up really! early and Megan too, and to pass the time before mom and dad got up we would sort of just sift through what was under the tree and guess what we had all gotten. Then we would all just kind of lay on the living room floor and talk about what we'd do with our presents and stuff like this. I just realized that by that point in time Abbey and Megan were already older than me and were totally playing along the santa thing for my benefit and that's so cool! I don't have anyone little that I could pretend for so I never thought about it but it must have been so fun to see me get so excited.
Okie, last one I'll share, one of my favorite traditions is every Christmas day after all our presents are open Lauren, my best friend, and I call eachother and discuss what we got and what we're excited about. It's not too monumental but it's so nice to talk to her even though she's never with me and be excited about what she got and have all kinds of fun talking.
So there's just a couple of my fun memories for Christmas. If you want you should leave your own!

On to family memories..

I'm finally done with the semester!!! All the tests, all the homework, all the projects, and all the graduate applications! So what this means is that I have time to finally do something other than school. Like finally read again or spend time with my family. And family is the subject of this post. I was talking to a friend recently and ended up asking them what their favorite part of spending time with their family. And then I thought about my favorite part of being with my family and thought I would write it down and share everything.
So this is what I decided the absolute best time was when all my family is together. When we're all together as a family we usually play games and I love it. We all sit together and usually end up laughing hilariously, like when we played Curses and all had weird things going on. It's just amazing to listen to everyone talk and laugh and tease each other. Those are the memories that I love the most because when we're all together we end up just being really happy and our teasing personalities just make everything so much fun. And we're all just so dang smart that the games are fun that way too. Challenging and just being together. And we always manage to figure out new things about each other, like how my mom can pick out specific people only from their profession and dates they lived. Haha I'm pretty sure we were all floored when she got four of those in a row in Smart Ass.
I love spending time with my family whatever we're doing I just picked out games as the time when everything is good and everyone ends up amazingly happy and at random times I just think of those times and start laughing. Ha and then I look like the weirdo I am.

Reasons why I'm weird.

Today is dedicated to my weirdness. Well it's my nature so I don't think it's weird but some other people might think it is. Okay first is my outlook on finals. Every year, semester after semester, people freak out about finals time and midterms, and for me, finals are the easiest part of the entire semester in every class. Maybe that's because of the classes I take where the projects are really the worst part, but finals have never worried me. I know it's 4 tests in two days but I just don't worry about them and I'm fairly sure they're be ridiculously easy.... Haha I hope I'm right about that. Usually what I'm stressing about is the homework or projects that teachers make due now, not the tests. Maybe that means I'm a good test taker...
Second is waiting. I don't have a problem doing it. For example, I finally finished my applications!!! And now I just have to wait I think until March for them to tell me if I got in or not. But I don't care. The hardest most stressful part of the process was actually pushing the submit button and letting my applications float through the ether to where they will actually be judged. Scary!! But now I don't care that I'm waiting. I don't care about waiting for my GRE scores either, which by the way should be here now. Maybe my mom already has them and just hasn't told me.... haha doubt that though. Dad maybe has them since he is the one who checks the mail, not mom. I guess though that Kara was right about this one, all the work I had to do is done now so it's no more stress.
Last is the fact that I keep buying things that I'll someday need. Well at least rationalizing it that way. See I have a love of jackets. All kinds, trench coats, big puffy ones, sweaters. I love them all and I'm totally in the wrong state for that right now. But! I'm going to grad school someplace else, maybe someplace ridiculously cold! So I'm going to need the jackets so it's okay that I'm buying them... Ha I think I just want an excuse but whatev.

So there's my random things about myself. For no good reason. Time to go finish some anatomy homework for Thursday :).