Confession #28

I don't know if it's actually number 28 or not that just sounded good. But anyway, here it is. First, I don't get that jazzed about musicians. I love love love music but I've never had that fantasy about running away with a rock star. Probably to the liking of my parents. But. That's not entirely true. There is only one rockstar who I would gladly and quickly run away with. Tyson Ritter. The lead singer of All American Rejects. I'm not entirely sure why him. But there it is. My rockstar fantasy in all it's fantastical glory. Tyson Ritter.

What Would You Do?

So Primetime has a new show called What Would You Do and it's like candid camera except not funny. They put people is socially awkward situations and then look at how they react. For example, one show had two actors on a date and the girl goes to the bathroom and the boy slips white powder in her drink, then they look at how the people in the bar react. Another one was two actors go to the gas station and one steals gas from the other while he's in the convenience store. So this got me started me thinking (I think this was the point) of what I would do in similar situations. Honestly in some of them I have no idea what I would do. Like for instance the bar scene.... I know myself well enough to know that I would confront the date, that's just not the kind of person I am. But I might tell the bartender that I had seen something. That scene also was experimented with the girl looking a little bit slutty, this got a totally different reaction. Almost no one did anything when she was dressed like that. So so so interesting. I am a social observer and I love stuff like this. It's just crazy to think about these different situations, or even ones historically like the Holocaust and Hitler and think how you would have reacted. It's easy to judge something from an outsider's point of view but what would you do if you were really there???

Fun Fact

So, schizophrenia. Some of the signs that you are schizophrenic are in how your brain chemistry changes from normal. At least in men. In men the hypocampus gets bigger than normal or maybe it isn't the hypocampus but it's something like that that changes size and is a sign of schizophrenia. So that's cool and special. Women however already have the different sized part of the brain. Another aspect of schizophrenia is that the symptoms are somewhat inhibited by estrogen. So what, maybe insane conclusion can we draw from this? That women are predisposed to schizophrenia. This is what I think contributes to PMS. Think about it. This is the point when your estrogen is the lowest and women exhibit crazy mood swings. It all sort of makes sense right? Okie this funky observation being said I must say that I am COMPLETELY against women using PMS as an excuse for their behavior. I'm not saying that PMS doesn't exist because I'll be honest there are times just bursting into tears for no reason or being incredibly irritable happens. But, I don't think you can make excuses for your behavior. We know that it happens and you have to prepare for that, or at least take responsibility for the fact that you didn't prepare for it. It's childish to blame PMS for something that if you get many times a year since you were a teenager, you should be able to control it by now. But that aside, it is intruging to think about the schizophrenia aspect...

School Administration

So the class that I want to get into is closed. I don't understand how I'm supposed to convince the instructor that he should override me into class. And really it's organic chemistry, how many people are going to drop out of this class anyway, I'll fit right in after a couple weeks. But I think I have to go in and see him in person and that's annoying since I don't get back until late....lame. I just don't know how to write this type of stuff in an email.

History

Okie so let me preface this by saying that pretty much the only books I read are historic, preferrably historical fiction. I love history, it's my favorite. But here is what happens to me every single time. I just finished reading 1776 and watched the WWII movie Valkerie (both excellent might I add).
I know the stories well and so just learning about the characters more and more was awesome. But even I know what's going to happen and it's already set in stone I still get sucked in to the story and root for the good guys! You want them to win so badly and it's almost more devastating when what you knew was going to happen happens anyway. For example in Valkerie.... I'm not giving away the story line here but there is a coup against Hitler and, again not giving anything away but it doesn't succeed. But it's SO sad because the entire time you see how creeptastic Hitler is and you are hoping that something bad doesn't happen and Tom Cruise succeeds! But alas, history hasn't changed and neither did the historical biography of the story. Every single time this happens and I don't know if I can stop. It's just a weird phenomena where you root for the good guy even though you know what's going to happen. I think it's just the effect that a book has one you, or a movie for that matter. You get into the story and forget yourself. You just focus on the characters and their feelings. You get lost in their own personal story and forget the world that you know and think about.

Resolutions

Okie so I'm not really into New Years Resolutions because I'm not usually so good at keeping them. But I do try and make goals and then see how long I work at them. It usually works out that I keep them for a while and then go a little bit up and down with them. Doing really well and then not doing so well. But I think it's important that you keep trying with things like that because it helps make you a better person and each time you work at it you get a little better. So just to make myself a little more accountable I thought I'd mention what my goals are for this year.

So here's the first one for this year. Actually the one I don't think I'll have trouble keeping but it still worries me. This one is about school and doing well. I don't think I'll forget this one because school is always on my mind...maybe that's a little lame. But whatev, do well at school.

Second is do better at being social. I try to get a little better at this every year and I think I am. But I want to be outgoing and comfortable in situations when I don't know people. Or at least pretend that I am.

I had more but I can't remember them at the moment. But oh well. At least I wrote a couple things down. Ha maybe I'll remember the rest later. Happy new year!!! Hope it's better than the last.