In the past couple of weeks I've had the
misfortune opportunity to say good bye to a lot of my friends. Most of them were good byes for just the Christmas break but a couple were good byes to friends I won't see for a very long time. Here's the conclusion I've come to: I am straight up terrible at saying good bye.
I've discovered that if you don't know me super well my good bye can come off a little bit like, "Hey I don't care about you. Peace!" So so so not true. Really I'm just baffled about what to say. I love giving hugs and I can do that. But after that I don't know what to do. I feel a little bit like Ricky Bobby in Talladega Nights. I just don't know what to do with my hands.
I can't express at all that I will miss you. "Have a nice life" just doesn't ring true for me. I also have a problem because I really dislike crying, and if I'm saying good bye to someone really important to me then if I think at all about how much I'll miss them it's inevitable I'll cry. And this doesn't work for me at all. So I just don't know what to do. All this adds up to me being super awkward at farewells. Like as awkward as the word awkward is. I feel bad for anyone who has to say good bye because it's just ridiculous. Maybe someday I'll be good at this..... but that would probably mean way more practice :(