Monday, September 7, 2009


Inadequacy. I had to say it twice because that's just how I feel today. It's been a long day, locking my keys in my car, treking to sonic only to have my drink dump all over my car, going to get a spare key to find out they can't make me one.... But anyway, every once in a while you start talking to people and just get the overwhelming feeling that you could be doing more with your life. That's sort of how I feel today. So I'm looking for ideas to do more with my life. I wish wish wish that I could take more classes, in all the things that interest me. But since my big beautiful school apparently doesn't do online classes.... or trust me I'd be taking many.... I just don't know what to do. I am thinking about volunteering at the Humane Society, but they aren't taking more volunteers until October, can I wait that long? I am also a little worried I will get insanely attached, so I'm going to try to not do that. I just feel like I need to do more. That's I'm somehow not doing enough with my potential. And I know this sounds way stupid, but getting a phd in engineering just isn't that impressive or something like that.... Any other ideas I am definitely open to! And in the mean time perhaps I'll find my self confidence somewhere. I am not as down as this sounds, it's more like there is a hole that I need to fill, or I can do more to enrich myself than I am...