Don't you just love it when you have this problem situation and you talk it out with people, only to find that, oh ya, it's all your fault. Love things like that. They just really make you go all warm and fuzzy inside....or maybe that's the guilt that's eating away at you.....I can never really tell the difference. Oh ya, it is just the guilt that I'm causing more problems than I'm fixing and not living up to anything. Ya it's definitely more that than the warm and fuzzy....Awesome.